Am i just a sideline guy..?

For months I'm trying to figure it out. Now i know what's happening. Why this things have to happen every time my chances comes. I don't want to be labeled as a bad friend but at the same time i still want this. I know my chances are not that high, but some friends say just keep on trying. I want to, but after i found out about this situation, i feel like why bother trying anymore..Hmm..I don't know if it's worth it or not. Or its gonna be another dead end. Now i feel like I'm just a sideline guy..ahahhaa..it sucks to be the sideline guy.